DIssapointment

For after so long, I've been really patient in you. Even thou we had certain fights, but I just don't want you to experience what I experience before which is really hurts. Well you might say that I don't understand your situation, but do you understand mine? I just want to protect you, I want you to be happy, I want you to be free from suffering. I'm really afraid to tell you about it, bcause I know when I tell you about it, you will be hurt. But I don't want you to be hurt even more. Sometimes chances are only give for once. That only chance is the chance where you have to appreciate it.

I don't mind if I don't get any repay from you 1 day, but I just don't expect you to bite me back. You are playing a big role in my life, and I don't want to lose you. Is really hard for me to be in this situation seeing you like this. Once people let you be free from a cage, don't bite them back. Not all of the people expect repay from you. Is okay to be selfish if that is to protect yourself, but think about it, wheter will it hurt other people? I'm not trying to say that you are selfish, I know you are trying to protect yourself, trying to keep a secret.

Honestly, I'm so dissapointed in you, I've never say anything bad about you infront of other people, I'm trying as hard as I can to protect you, I'm trying as hard to not see the truth, but I just can't lie to myself anymore. Well if you are unhappy in the way that I'm talking, I have to apologize. I don't expect any repay at all from you. I'm really glad to have you in my life, but not getting hurt by you. Well I'm sorry if I don't understand your situation now, but you have to be strong and face everything. I want you to grow up, I want you to be the best man in your life. I want you to have everything. But I think is time for me to stand back, and when you falls, I won't be there to support you from not falling or protect you so I'll be the one in pain. I'll let you know the pain in falling and I want you to get up. I'll always support you whenver you want to get up, and I'll heal your wound so you won't leave a scar there that reminds you of it.
I love you.