failure

today we are having the bulan penghayatan merdeka..this morning i was abit late..everything was fine..den in the afternoon i went to duty again..and i'm the only f5 and who is the eldest at there..the form 2 are like so useless..and i almost got to do everything..kah wai was like so nervous..and dunno what to do..she dun even noe which to plug which..i felt like laughing and scolding her at that time..den the room is like full of ppl..and i started to shout and ask those hu arent involve please get away from this room..and almost are the f6s who are all my brother's frens..they are kinda shock that i'm abit fierce..den when is time i got to go..i took my back and when out..on the way..i keep on worrying about the little ones..so i ran to my aunty and told her that i'm not following her car..and i ran back to the hall again..is like so tiring...1st they having qoir..den kelab kebudayaan..and when coming to the drama..they got to connect that thing to the com..is like i was stunt..and i dun even noe what to do..
all of the form fours when back..and i got to do the console by myself..i started to test is..is like shit man..there isnt any sound..so what i can do is jus use a mic and point on it..den is was damm soft..i seriously dunno what to do at that time..i felt like wanna cry d..i was down b4 that and now even worst..so sometimes i got to set it louder and make sure there is no 'fit' bt ended up i try to open the speaker abit louder bt is abit useless...
den when the drama finished..i straight away get out from there or not i'm gonna boom out soon..den i called my parents wheter any1 of them can fetch me..bt no..so i got to walk under the hot sun from school to UH..i am tired enough d and i got to walk again..i seriously wanted to burst my tears when my friend ask me why i look down..bt i jus told him that i'm such a failure..den straight away walk out to school..and ended up i waited at the bus stop for abt 15 minutes like that..reached home by 15 minutes..bath and posting this blog now..and i found out that i'm really sucks at alot of things...i'm jus a useless girl..